A year ago, I began this blog with a very personal and heartbreaking post. I shared with all of you that I suffered a miscarriage. When I wrote the blog, on Jan. 10th of last year, I was still reeling from the pain. It still hurts my heart when I think about that little life and what could have been.
Yet as I sit here, writing this post today, I am filled with such joy. I am watching my eight week old daughter sleep in her swing. My two-year old son is taking a nap and I am free for a moment to share my thoughts.
After my miscarriage, I wondered if I would have any more children. I questioned if I was emotionally strong enough to go through another pregnancy, should we be blessed enough to get pregnant.
We were so fortunate that four months after our miscarriage, I became pregnant. I will never forget how nervous I was going in for that first ultra-sound because that’s when we learned our previous pregnancy wasn’t viable.
Now, I am filled with such joy and a feeling of contentment that I’ve never had before. I feel that our family is complete. Hadley Hope was the missing piece to our puzzle and she is a gift from God.
Now I’m trying to do my best to be thankful. In this New Year, I am trying to grow in my relationship with God and make sure that our kids grow up in the church, just like my husband and I did. I’m starting a “Life with God” class this Sunday. I want to find ways to give thanks and give back to our community as well.
Though life with two can be hectic and I usually spend my days in sweatpants with no makeup, it’s a good life.
I hope your New Year is off to a great start! I’ll be on here when I can.
